and a very satisfying feeling and I always find myself looking forward to the next time.

I was almost discovered several times when members of my fam- ily returned home unexpectedly, and after every close call I vowed never to get dressed up again, but I didn't realize how deep and intense my TV desires were. Later on, the feeling would return and I wouldn't feel satisfied until I was dressed again. When ever I wore my sister's or mother's clothes, I was always very careful to return them to their proper place, unsoiled and folded exactly as they were before-hand. Being of small stature and proportions at the time, wearing their clothes was no problem. I even ventured out in public a couple of times at night and walked around the block. I just had to go out and let some people see me dressed as a girl. I guess I was trying to find out whether they would accept me as a girl or whether they would see through me. As far as I know no one ever did. As I look back now I realize how foolish I was to have done this since I didn't have a wig and wore just a ker- chief on my head. My youth plus my makeup probably allowed me to

pass alright at a distance.

I always wondered though how it would be to dress whenever I desired and have my own clothes. I wasn't to realize this wonder- ful state of being until many years later.

Upon graduating from high school I enlisted in the Air Force for 4 years. Needless to say, this curtailed any TV activity as I feared being discovered and summarily discharged. On different occasions I purchased a slip, panties, or nightie for a weekend on pass, then I discarded them afterwards. For the most part, I was successful in suppressing the desire until I was honorably discharged. I must say I rather enjoyed my stay in the service and I don't re- gret the time it took from me. I met a lot of nice people, merited some rank and responsibility and traveled extensively in this coun- try and overseas,

After my enlistment I returned to my parent's home and took up engineering studies. But after awhile, the old desire returned to have my own place and dress whenever I wanted to. Aftercompleting school the opportunity arose to take employment in Calif., so after much thought and consideration I accepted the position. I hated leaving my family and friends, but accepting would give me a chance to be on my own and enable me to give the expression to my feminine self which was very necessary to my peace of mind.

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